How do we go about shielding loved ones from hurt? When I hear someone I care about being upset or hurt about something I have no control on. I ache. I ache for the person feeling bad. I feel frustrated and helpless. Sometimes my frustration appears harsh. In the process of trying to make things […]
Down and out is how I feel
When all of future resembles the current day
I can feel sadness welling inside me
Like a wave ready to crash
Yet I blink and carry on
For there is no reason I should be sad
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As yet another of my gazillion cousins sets out on this arranged marriage journey I feel a twinge of pain. For all those pictures that will get tossed aside because “(s)he is fat!”. For all those ponnu parkals that will end in a day of agony when the call comes through saying “We liked everything […]
“When Man loses faith in himself, he starts believing in God!”
This used to be Appa’s response whenever I asked him why he turned from someone with no overt faith into one who experienced a sudden revival in faith towards the last decade of his life.
Today I think I got what he meant. It is one […]
Am back in the waiting room for ICU attenders at a hospital in suburban Trichy. The room painted a shabby yellow was extremely clean. An old lady sat muttering in a corner swiping furious glances at other inhabitants and deftly packing pohailai, paaku and sunnambu into her vetrilai.
A lady with four daughters sit in a […]
One year back, the last Sunday in October, my dad complained of not feeling well. His words “I feel uncomfortable.” I was standing in a phone booth an overnight train journey away with a sinking feeling in my stomach. I walked back home my mind in a whirl of thoughts.
I see K in the elevator […]
Lonely not aloneA smile hiding the painLump in the throatA feeling of hope-less-ness…
One of those days when I look towards the future and see only two silhouettes walking into the sunset. My mental picture looks incomplete. It is also one of those days where I acutely feel the hope-less-ness.
I try telling myself to look at […]
Pain is a beautiful thing. In itself it a a very intense emotional experience. The sensation of the hot tears pricking at the eyelids, the tug at the heart, the almost physical pain at the pit of the stomach. The constant welling of tears till there are no more and the eyes remain vacant and […]
