Archive for the 'Appa' Category

You want it. You fight for it.

“If you want something, you have to fight for it!” my FIL stated emphatically. No. It was not in the context of something inspirational yet it turned out to be one for me. He was speaking of the red-tapism and the attendant struggles in getting anything done in Bangalore. Am sure it is true of […]

In grief we unite

As my mom spoke of yet another good friend who lost her mom this past week, I slipped into a melancholic state. The raw feelings of grief that washed over me when I realized my dad’s loss revisited me all over again. No matter our age, it is always hard to deal with the loss […]

Ahh! The arrogance of youth..

As I liberally dusted myself with Mysore Sandal Talc today morning in what appears to be a recent habit, I couldn’t help thinking back at the days I scorned my amma, appa and athai for coating themselves liberally with talc. I would tease them saying the powder was an inch think on their face and […]

Appa, I miss you.

Reading another blogger’s account of losing her dad had me bawling like a baby in my shower. Memories of peeking at you from behind when you sat shaving on our red and white patterned plywood dresser mirror and stool and rushing to cover your eyes and ask you “Yaaru sollu?” is still fresh in my […]

Happy Birthday Daddy Dears!!!

One of things I always felt happy about was that both my dad and K’s shared their b’day. Early on in our marriage, we made it a tradition of waking them up early over the phone and singing a birthday song for them. I mean both K and I together. It sounds cheesy I know. […]

Watching you, learning from you.

Packing a batch of muffins in a circular pan for a friend, I sat down with my lunch. The TV was on and playing Watching You by Rodney Atkins. I have always loved that song. I paused watching the entire song before I turned my attention to the plate again.
In its own sweet way, […]

Then and now

Photographs have a way of making me melancholy. I look at pictures from my past and relive the moment the picture was taken. Sitting on my desk at work is a picture of my dad in his blue collared tee shirt with red horizontal stripes spaced wide apart. He has a nice smile and his […]

I miss my father in law!

Before you even gush and say “Aww, how sweet!”, let me clarify my statement. I miss him for sure, just not in the way I would miss my mom when she goes back or the way I would miss K if he were to go away for a week.
So, why this public declaration of affection?
Because […]

I was a happy bride!

Yes. Amma and I watched my wedding video. Full five hours of meticulous ceremonies and brightly clad people. Over the past seven years, I would have watched my wedding video probably three times in full.
Yesterday as we were done dinner and sat around not knowing what to do, I had this brainwave. As we watched […]

Time dulls the pain…

Nov 27th 2006. 6:45 PM. The doctors officially let us know my dad was no more. In many ways it was confirmation of a fact we were mentally preparing for. For days after questions lingered. The pain was sharp at times, the tears fast and furious. Anger alternated with grief. A few months passed, my […]